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As the owner of this forum, I wanna kinda tell you guys why I wanted to start this forum in general and how my life is on a daily basis.
stats at the start of HS:
5'6
Upper LTN
120LB
As you guys may know, I am relatively young and finishing my freshmen year in high school. I graduated middle school, everything was going perfect until highschool essentially. I didn't really know much people going into high school, so I became pretty quiet. ( compared to middle school I am a different person i use to be the most chalant person ever and was yelling with my old friends). I barely even talked to anyone and kinda just was to myself most of the year. Sure like I am chill with most people but I never had a group to stick to. The LM idealogy came to me just the second highschool started. I can see all the 6ft MTNs and HTNs just making all the girls laugh, having the most friends, etc. I was just a freshmen loser who was not relevant at all, and it all clicked for me instantly.
(i know some people from my school will see this and i wont go to deep into detail but if you know me IRL im just being truthful im not trying to be weird this just how I feel)
I didn't play any sports, did not do any after school activities, no parties, no nothing. I was basically just going to school to deadass learn and nothing else. Obviously overtime more and more insecurities developed and I started clinging to LM in October, 2025. I obviously was familiar with the entire community, was obsessed with it in winter 2023, saw clav in summer 2025 with cookieverse, so I already knew what LM was I just didn't really apply it to my life.
I came home everyday from school and just played video games, rotting on forums, and doomscrolling and staying inside. (LDAR'ed). And i'd say depressed for a little bit. I wasn't in the best state of life also considering I wake up at 6am and its pure dark out and it takes me an hour to get to school everyday in 10 degree weather in snow in downtown chicago taking public transit. My life was hell at the time. I went to school to be criticized and learn stuff that I didn't even want to and I know that most of it won't help me later in life. I hated it. As well as my parents being divorced, I had to switch houses really often and they have been since I was a baby. I never got the childhood most people had. As well as my dad pushing me and how my grades suck, was really bad. I also got a buzz cut and people thought even less of me and i was being made fun of and labeled as eleven from stranger things, even from girls.
Anywho, school became very exhausting for me. Seeing all the kids in my class that are obviously better looking then me and more developed physically just made me feel horrible. I barely talked to anyone in October - Jan. I started a youtube channel like a little incel I am to do a self improvement journey, which lasted private for about 20 days. Eventually basically the entire freshmen class found it and I was the name of the day. I eventually got in trouble for it even for dragging so much attention. All of the normies like me who are average kids also I would say know about LM just not a trucel like me. So, the attention clinged to me and lots of people asked me questions and how to improve etc etc. So now I was known as the "looksmaxxing" kid. Which isn't so bad, now at least I am not so quiet I am pretty chill with everyone I don't really have any beef with anybody. But still I was so insecure about myself, I am still pretty sure to this day I have body dismorphia.
After feb I decided to like seriously do something I hated the way I looked (i still do now.) But its definitely better then it was a few months ago. I cooked my own dinners every night (animal based) went to the gym 3-4 times a week, drank liters of water, all of the softmaxxes known to man, at such a young age. I became so much better and I have gotten happier but I still have rage and I am always disappointed when looking in the mirror. I can name 50 flaws about myself and Im afraid every time I walk past others they just give that face of knowing what they are. The problem with my name going around now is that the girls thought it was weird (atleast I think), like anytime I do anything and talk about looksmaxxing and nutrition and all stuff I am knowledgable about they just think im crazy, ha.
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And eventually in April I thought to myself I need to do more. Even though I still hate the way I look, I felt like what if I didn't just help myself and tried to help others?
I knew .org has been trashed and all other forums are a mess. So I figured, what if I made a forum dedicated to strict improvement for others or people can give their knowledgable advice to others for specific topics? Because this isnt just like org there are topics that are not talked about in most forums. This reaching 250 members is surreal to me and I hope you guys have gotten the help you needed so far. I am astonished by the growth we have had in less then a month and I cannot wait for the future.
But anywho, i created this on april third. Its funny because I was thinking of this in my first period class on a monday and was just thinking like what am I doing with my life and I started thinking about business ideas and just ways to do something with my life. I was watching FaceIQ's business video about making $25k a month and my brain just started thinking I don't really know what happened.
Now that it is may first, I have still been doing my current plan and now this is a solid community that I can put to my name. I hope you guys understand that I feel so much more hyper intelligent then others . I understand my surroundings a little to much, im just to ND.
I hope you guys enjoy this forum honestly. it is the only thing that makes me feel like I have done something good.
Thank you and please dont LOS me lol
Alex
Pings: @Retamg @Trueteen14 @Elias.dgaf @988 @zz_arr.
stats at the start of HS:
5'6
Upper LTN
120LB
As you guys may know, I am relatively young and finishing my freshmen year in high school. I graduated middle school, everything was going perfect until highschool essentially. I didn't really know much people going into high school, so I became pretty quiet. ( compared to middle school I am a different person i use to be the most chalant person ever and was yelling with my old friends). I barely even talked to anyone and kinda just was to myself most of the year. Sure like I am chill with most people but I never had a group to stick to. The LM idealogy came to me just the second highschool started. I can see all the 6ft MTNs and HTNs just making all the girls laugh, having the most friends, etc. I was just a freshmen loser who was not relevant at all, and it all clicked for me instantly.
(i know some people from my school will see this and i wont go to deep into detail but if you know me IRL im just being truthful im not trying to be weird this just how I feel)
I didn't play any sports, did not do any after school activities, no parties, no nothing. I was basically just going to school to deadass learn and nothing else. Obviously overtime more and more insecurities developed and I started clinging to LM in October, 2025. I obviously was familiar with the entire community, was obsessed with it in winter 2023, saw clav in summer 2025 with cookieverse, so I already knew what LM was I just didn't really apply it to my life.
I came home everyday from school and just played video games, rotting on forums, and doomscrolling and staying inside. (LDAR'ed). And i'd say depressed for a little bit. I wasn't in the best state of life also considering I wake up at 6am and its pure dark out and it takes me an hour to get to school everyday in 10 degree weather in snow in downtown chicago taking public transit. My life was hell at the time. I went to school to be criticized and learn stuff that I didn't even want to and I know that most of it won't help me later in life. I hated it. As well as my parents being divorced, I had to switch houses really often and they have been since I was a baby. I never got the childhood most people had. As well as my dad pushing me and how my grades suck, was really bad. I also got a buzz cut and people thought even less of me and i was being made fun of and labeled as eleven from stranger things, even from girls.
Anywho, school became very exhausting for me. Seeing all the kids in my class that are obviously better looking then me and more developed physically just made me feel horrible. I barely talked to anyone in October - Jan. I started a youtube channel like a little incel I am to do a self improvement journey, which lasted private for about 20 days. Eventually basically the entire freshmen class found it and I was the name of the day. I eventually got in trouble for it even for dragging so much attention. All of the normies like me who are average kids also I would say know about LM just not a trucel like me. So, the attention clinged to me and lots of people asked me questions and how to improve etc etc. So now I was known as the "looksmaxxing" kid. Which isn't so bad, now at least I am not so quiet I am pretty chill with everyone I don't really have any beef with anybody. But still I was so insecure about myself, I am still pretty sure to this day I have body dismorphia.
After feb I decided to like seriously do something I hated the way I looked (i still do now.) But its definitely better then it was a few months ago. I cooked my own dinners every night (animal based) went to the gym 3-4 times a week, drank liters of water, all of the softmaxxes known to man, at such a young age. I became so much better and I have gotten happier but I still have rage and I am always disappointed when looking in the mirror. I can name 50 flaws about myself and Im afraid every time I walk past others they just give that face of knowing what they are. The problem with my name going around now is that the girls thought it was weird (atleast I think), like anytime I do anything and talk about looksmaxxing and nutrition and all stuff I am knowledgable about they just think im crazy, ha.
Today even in my English class I was doing a Memoir and annotating a "miss american" writing and it was about how some mexican immigrant family came intro the U.S and wanted to look pretty like average American girls. Teacher asked the class: "what makes someone attractive?" and nobody is responding for like 15 seconds and my truecel mind just goes into circles like I can't just not answer this. So I reply, "golden ratio, measurements, etc" class looked at me like I was an ailien. All of the jesters in my class that are dudes obviously just tell me to shutup even though they are iqlets and they take horrible care of themselves and are just, obviously, not like me. Girls looking at me like what the actual fuck is that because obviouslty the girls are like why would a guy say that maybe I need to know what that is? So girl says what does that even mean? I am just like angularity, facial harmony, dimorphism, all of the stuff just goes into effect and golden ratio is basically just the perfect measurements of the face and teach just saying like can you name something for example? I was just like saying stuff like facial width to height ratio, you know stuff like that. point of the story is everyone thinks im weird. I just simply cannot hold myself back when someone says personality or some copium nonsense. outfits, jewlery, hairstyle, like bro, can you just stop talking? It is so obvious that you females want a masculine 6'2 chad thats rich and will treat you right. And the boys want the girls that have the curves and skinny and cute and nice overall that is freaky. Hypergamy and lust is the worst thing ever. It is so realistic, and I see it EVERY DAY.
And eventually in April I thought to myself I need to do more. Even though I still hate the way I look, I felt like what if I didn't just help myself and tried to help others?
I knew .org has been trashed and all other forums are a mess. So I figured, what if I made a forum dedicated to strict improvement for others or people can give their knowledgable advice to others for specific topics? Because this isnt just like org there are topics that are not talked about in most forums. This reaching 250 members is surreal to me and I hope you guys have gotten the help you needed so far. I am astonished by the growth we have had in less then a month and I cannot wait for the future.
But anywho, i created this on april third. Its funny because I was thinking of this in my first period class on a monday and was just thinking like what am I doing with my life and I started thinking about business ideas and just ways to do something with my life. I was watching FaceIQ's business video about making $25k a month and my brain just started thinking I don't really know what happened.
Now that it is may first, I have still been doing my current plan and now this is a solid community that I can put to my name. I hope you guys understand that I feel so much more hyper intelligent then others . I understand my surroundings a little to much, im just to ND.
I hope you guys enjoy this forum honestly. it is the only thing that makes me feel like I have done something good.
Thank you and please dont LOS me lol
Alex
Pings: @Retamg @Trueteen14 @Elias.dgaf @988 @zz_arr.
